Dear Little One,
:). Umi and Abi thought that you'll be coming the previous month. But Umi was getting the false alarm. So the coming month Umi was being a bit negligence. Umi was not taking the folic acid anymore cause it causes Umi headache and giddiness. And this time Umi tried to act a little bit 'cool'. Not realising that you will be giving us a surprise.
And that month was special to Umi and Abi. We celebrated Abi's birthday and our third anniversary. For three years we've been celebrating those for two, by not realising that this year there are actually three of us :), alhamdulillah. Umi and Abi have been waiting for you, and you are the best birthday gift ever for Abi.
Your presence was confirmed when Umi was in India. Abi received the delightful news with Hamdalah. And of course your grandpas and g'mas get to know the news first. Everybody was excited. Umi was well, but it seemed that Abi got all the pregnancy symptoms. Abi was unwell for one week until Abi fainted and was given drip in the emergency department.
The excitement started to fade away when Umi started to have spotting at 6 weeks of pregnancy. Abi rushed home and stayed with Umi until the third day Umi started to bleed heavily. For an hour Umi had the non-stop contraction. Abi brought Umi to emergency department and at that time we knew that we have lost you. Allah loves you more, alhamdulillah. Umi stayed in hospital for two nights and Abi was there most of the time with Umi. Many of your makcik-s (hehe) came to visit Umi, and not to forget those who keeps Umi strong with their sms of encouragements and dua's. Jzkk
For some time Umi and Abi felt so empty. We shed tears over the lost of you, our first little one yet we know that Allah has better plans for us. Thank you Allah for giving us the chance to feel the nikmat and the sweetness of parenthood for two weeks. And of course we will always pray that we will be given the chance again, together with the chance to raise our own children up according to Your Sibghah, iAllah and ameen.
And we will also pray for other husband and wife who are still striving for a baby, just like us. Make a lot of dua's and never give up. Follow your doctor's advice cause it really helps iAllah.
And of course we need your dua's too :).
Abu 'Abd al-Rahman 'Abdullah bin Mas'ud, radiyallahu 'anhu, reported: The Messenger of Allah, sallallahu 'alayhi wasallam, the most truthful, the most trusted, told us:
"Verily the creation of any one of you takes place when he is assembled in his mother's womb; for forty days he is as a drop of fluid, then it becomes a clot for a similar period. Thereafter, it is a lump looking like it has been chewed for a similar period. Then an angel is sent to him, who breathes the ruh (spirit) into him. This Angel is commanded to write Four decrees: that he writes down his provision (rizq), his life span, his deeds, and whether he will be among the wretched or the blessed.
I swear by Allah - there is no God but He - one of you may perform the deeds of the people of Paradise till there is naught but an arm's length between him and it, when that which has been written will outstrip him so that he performs the deeds of the people of the Hell Fire; one of you may perform the deeds of the people of the Hell Fire, till there is naught but an arm's length between him and it, when that which has been written will overtake him so that he performs the deeds of the people of Paradise and enters therein."
